for the 1st time in my life, i'm feeling depressed. never had this kind of sucky and lousy feeling before. is that the reality of life or just army? hmm. pls keep me in prayers man.
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9:45 PM |
Sunday, August 26, 2007
alrite. its been sometime man. someone actually told me to update a few weeks ago but i drag until now. i'm seriously thinking, who will still visit here man? heh. anyway, there's not much things to update also. I'm a 2nd yr soldier already and in a unit that is... shld i say very very active. So, was really busy with lots of things. Was involved in NDP07 and it's quite sad tt now it's over coz no more monday night book in.
I just so miss being a trainee like for the past one year. from BMT to sispec and finally training to be an armour spec. it's just so shiok that those days don't have much responsibilities. being a commander is really not an easy job man. you are always sandwiched between officers(esp OC!) and the men under you. Alot of time, you will think like your men but you can't coz you have things you need to accomplish by the end of the day.
Today ran 21km. both my legs almost dropped! it's just so great to see aaron again lah. oh man. i so miss days in ATI, where i trained to be an armour spec, and of coz, P4S2.. our favourite, Staff Alan. You know, friends are so amazingly important in NS. What pushes me on every single day is coz i've got quite a great bunch of friends around me, everyday talking cock with me! hah.
okay okay. stop all the army stuff. recently met up with victor and he's like ORD-ing sooo soon lah! so jealous but he's got his own share of sufferings too. He was my senior in poly days and now, he's gonna study Banking and Finance. It really sets me thinking whether shld i still pursuit an engineering degree or go for something else. if you say about passion, i will say engineering kinda sucks at times and i seriously don't see myself as an engineer 4 yrs down the road. hmmmm
Lord, let Your peace that surpass all understanding to reign in my heart so that i can face the challenges ahead with confident. Lord, let me experience Your unconditional love once again coz i know that is a powerful tool to fight everyday life. Lord, give me a revelation of Your amazing grace that even though i sin, i still know in my heart that i'm still the righteousness of God in Christ!
that's the update for now. do drop me a comment if you're still alive here! hee ;)
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9:45 PM |
Saturday, February 17, 2007
alright. my pc is down and i dont think im gonna replace one anytime soon. so, i wont be online tt often anymore. :)
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10:31 AM |
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
blessed new year everyone! I know it's kinda late and well, its the spirit of laziness that is surrounding me.. that's why. hah.
Nothing much to update coz it's just all about NS life. On friday, we managed to book out earlier than before. Saturday, went to have a good dinner with my buddies. Sunday, went church and later on, went cousin's place. Lastly, i slacked the whole day at home yesturday and I bet today. And i'm booking in tonight.
I've realised that when you are in the army, sometimes, it's a constant fighting of loneliness as a civilian. Not that i don't enjoy loneliness.. but i think, too much of it kinda drive me crazy. Alot of time, i don't know which gang to call and go out and if you realised, most of the time, i will stay at home on saturdays when i book out. don't be mistaken.. as i said, i love being alone at home also coz the comfort of home is really damn different when you are in bunk. I think, largely due to the fact that everyone knows im in army and don't call me out and my good buddies are all in the army as well.. their weekends are equally precious.. therefore, spending with gfs are sometime more important. i dont blame them for that la.. it's their committment to one another. Like yesturday and today, it's a four days holiday and I'm spending two days at home doing nothing. haha. actually it's alright. I can rest also la..
anyway, 2006 had been great in some ways. Its the end of my polytechnic life and i bet that was an achievement for me, especially in my fyp. Applied for university and get myself a place in NTU. My parents are damn excited when i told them I'm going Uni. Got into army and that's where all the not so good thing comes. Places i want to go, i didn't go.. places i didn't expect to be in and i'm in.. so yea. actually its not altogether that bad, the people i met are also great people man. make lots of friends there especially in armour now.. i think my bunk is one of the most happening one around.. both for my army experience so far and also compare to the rest of the bunk.
For 2007, I'm gonna be in the NS the whole year. I just hope that it will be a fulfilling year for me. When Pastor was announcing the blessing to us on sunday, praying over the year of 2007, I keep thinking.. how can i be blessed and how can it be good? But still, i want to proclaim that 2007 is a good year and a fulfilling one for me. I was telling God that let this year be a very fulfilling year and unique experience for me.. afterall, i have to go thru it.. make it enjoyable be it nxt time i go to unit or whatever place He put me. I just want to enjoy the 2007 away. So, please pray for me as well.
It shall be a good year! Amen!
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9:03 AM |
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Nope I didn't awol, nope i'm not on status. haha. yeah and i'm not in camp. well, i booked in on monday only to know that my course starts on thurs. I guess the reason we were told to book in on monday because my coy in sispec wants us to apply our leave at our new camp. so, immediately after putting down our barang barang in a bunk, we left the camp and when we reached Lot1, the shops are not fully open yet. We saw some friends from Signals also. They did the same thing also. Well, they just have to rub it in when they told us that they are not gonna have soc and no camo on.
but anyway, these few days i've reflected on alot of things and i'm still learning how to lean on the Lord and look at a bigger picture that God is preparing me for something greater next time. Take it as bread for you to grow as you go through these tough times, son. :)
woo hoo! Hillsong United is power man! I was at their concert yesturday night and i enjoy every bit of it man! Jumping my heads off and release everything like when we were back in Teenzeal. It reminded me so much of the old Teenzeal days when all of us are so wild but anyway, thank God they came and i really had a great time with a few companies and also, getting myself recharged for God. Really needed that so much coz i'm just feeling really low about the things of God lately. The things that they shared with us is also timely and I really hope i can remember them and not just forget everything when i'm back to camp.
By the way, i've got my corporal rank and i'm posted to a ulu camp call sungei gedong to train as an armour spec. the camp is all the way inside lim chu kang. I told my mum that i will pass by the cemetries at choa chu kang and my mum ask me to bring my bible to camp and whenever i pass by the cemetry, she call me to pray.. haha. So, yep.. I wasn't prepared to get myself into armour and I heard the training is more tough than infantry but, I guess I just have to go ahead and face it. There's where the sharing comes in.. Eng Kee + God is bigger than anything and any situation man! :) Pray for me.. favour with my instructor and also, good and nice instructors.
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8:50 AM |
Sunday, November 05, 2006
just a quick one before booking in. booked out this morning and went to church immediately. caught some precious sleep and i've to book in again. Well, i didn't get to see my parents as they are enjoying themselves in Genting. I'm just glad for them that they are taking time off to enjoy life. Well, i will be confine for the next two weeks because of the major exercises that is coming up and it happily falls on next weekend. I'll be going back to tekong again.. good also la, can catch some sleep while travelling there.
I guess all of us are looking forward to the next book out coz the week after that, i'll be get my corporal rank and i think, i'll be getting my posting on that week itself. hmm.. guess i'm boring you guys with ns stuff. But I can't help it.. haa. our life now is all about serving ns and that's what common to talk about. I don't know what is happening outside now and that's the reason.
