It has been really some time since I've seen my primary school friends. hmm.. come to think of it, it's about 7 years since we graduated from Maha Bodhi School. oh man, i feel so old. haa. Well, thankfully I still got keep contact with a few of them and thank God for friendster. haa. yup, I've found some of my old friends there and I think that's where we started to have primary school gathering and yesturday was the first time I went down. hmm.. it's not a bad session afterall even though we are quite awkward at times.. don't know what to say. It's really nice to catch up with them again after so so long. Give the credits to Wei Tian and TCW for organising. hmm.. they say that I look different from when i graduated. haa. I hope I look better ;)
hmm.. was actually talking to one of them and we start to talk about this.
We get to know each other like 7 years ago and it's amazing that after so many years, we can get together again. We compare our life when we are 12 and now. it's a total different life and we totally can't imagine ourselves when we are 25. Are we going to carry our kids around when we go for gathering next time? haa. We always wanted to grow old when we are young but once you are old, you want to be young. After 7 years, it's kinda scary to see each other growing so big size and tall and mature. What will we be in another 7 years..? hmmmm..
Something that I hate about life is that friends come and go. As you grow up year by year, the fact that we have to leave the old and live on with a new life ahead, sometimes can be rather sucky. I agree that it might have something great in the future for you but I just miss some of the things that I have before.
Today is a day of 'gathering' for some of us, my batchmates. Jackson, Eddie, Yu Wen, Darren and some girl. haa. Anyway, it's really nice to come together again. Talking about our cadet days, talking about Footdrill Course and SWOC with Eddie, our days in Pulau Ubin camp, talking about some of the foolish things we did in Red Cross room, the shit we went through in camps and even our days back in Manjusri.. I can go on and on and on but i guess time doesn't permits. The moment we talk about those days, we will just practically laugh our lungs out and i guess those experience that we went through, just gonna be in our heart and mind for the rest of our life. As what Viz said.. Bonds are created when all of you are suffering together. That's so true.
Today, all of us( batchmates), we are in our different schools. We are busy with our different things, be it school or gf.. we are not able to be like last time, suffering together, talk all the things we want in the Red Cross room, laughing like we use to... I just hope that I will be back to those days.. I miss my past..
I was back to my secondary school last night. Well, I miss that place. That's obvious right, I spent 5 years of my lifetime there. I walked around the school and memories of me walking this familiar yet not familiar school struck my mind deeply. As I walk around the school, I recalled how often I used to walked this path to my classroom, to the canteen, to the basketball court....
The bbq night for my previous red cross unit became more of a sharing session between Law, Jackson and me. It's kinda sad that only three of us went back but it's nice. Just hope that the next time round, it will be more people since we are starting up the Manjusri Red Cross Alumni. It's cool.
Third Day - Love Song
Everytime I pick up my guitar, I never fail to play this lovely song. It speaks of how much Jesus loves us and the very first time I heard this song, I wept...
I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain, but I walked the hill of Calvary
Chorus:
Just to be with you I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you I'd give everything
Oh I'd give my life away
I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
All of those dream are empty motion
It has never been done
Well I've never swam the deepest ocean, but I've walked upon the raging sea
Chorus
Bridge:
And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again
Chorus
This world is so real and cruel. I hate to say this. Why can't people be loving and gracious? I have friends that are really gracious and it's really wonderful to have them around. Jesus gave us a covernent of love but we are not living it but rather people are narrow-minded, unloving.. I don't know whether I will be like that next time but i'm gonna pray that I'm not..
Unit Leaders Programme started last week and ended this week. I don't deny that i do miss this short session with the leaders. especially the moment when one of the cadet started crying when he was shaking my hand. i gave a small hug and hopefully he will feel warm. well, this is my second year as an instructor and i guess i'm still young. some of the senior instructors says that after some time, you will feel numb about everything and you won't feel so emotional. haa. let's see.
I would say even though i'm an instructor for this leadership programme, i have learn alot of things from my senior. i mean leadership skills. everyone can be a leader but it takes some skill to be a good leader. i will not say that i am a good leader but i'm on this journey of learning to be one. i thank God that we have experienced and motivated leaders in rcy who we can look up to. through Exercise Humanity, i've learn loz of things from viz. i can see how he motivate the trainees, how he make the whole journey interesting, how he is able to be firm with problematic trainees, how he train his cadets, how he take note of trainee's feelings even under training. i believe, just this exercise alone, he has created this bond with the group.
For the trip back from East Coast Park, i felt the sense of satisfaction when i'm able to push the trainees so far and it's really amazing that when your spirit is high, you can do great wonders. no wonder viz has always been working on their spirit.( sounds weird bud i guez u guys knows what i meant.haa)
"ULP! *knock knock* HAR!" guess i only can hear that next year in campfire.
yeap. i totally agree with people talking about the toufu generation. i'm not sure whether i'm in or not but what i see about my life, i would say that i'm not really in it. haa. even though viz says that i'm the pioneer batch for that.
it's really amazing to hear so many parents started complaining about their precious child being stressed up when they are given a heavy task. well, i go through even tougher times than they do. not to say my seniors. they had went through shit! they had went through even tougher trainings. ok, digressed. one day, your precious child will have to face this big, cruel, reality, scary, back-stabbing world which is much much more complicated than what we are having here and you are not drilling them up.? hmm.. it's good that you are protective over your child but sometimes, it does them no help.
i believe you guys can see for yourselve the kids these days. they are such a spoilt brat! with the generation of kids now and the generation of parents now and with the system that government sets to restrict tough trainings, we have too much limitations and that will not help the future generations... they are such toufu and will it eventually become even softer toufu or hard and well fried toufu.. we shall see..
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