Just as i'm about to write this blog, my good friend, kh, smsed me and told me that he's going air wing. wah. damn song lah. all the best lah bro! really glad for you and at the same time, envy you. I also want to go air force! army is just...... argh! cheong sua is really damn sian.. the only thing i like about it is that i can be train until damn fit.. that's all. Well, I've just ended the second week of training. I'm really praying that i'll not go ASLC. Heard from those aslc ppl, that the next batch will not go taiwan but thailand instead. Wah damn sian lah! If im going aslc, at least can enjoy in taiwan during R&R. Thailand..? er? see bapok ah?
I'm still feel very demoralised by alot of things. Bitter about alot of things. But no doubt that I'm in a very good company. My PWO is really someone that I respect. Alot of us always thinks that being an officer is good(which i think so too), but he says that he prefer himself to be a specialist because they are the ones who really run the show. The main fascilitator between PC and the man. As a specialist, you can learn alot of things and know how to manage the man and prepare the things for PC. He's really one passionate guy and he also inspire our batchmates that signed on, that the passion to lead the man under them cannot burn out. but well, NSF like us sometime is different. We want to go for the best and also serve and go. We think, as an officer you will have more time for ourselves, more money, more pride. I don't know how true is that for freedom but i bet that's what most nsf thinks. "With pride we lead" is what we always say in sispec but how many of us is really proud to be a specialists? Maybe not yet but I'm still recovering from the disappointment and still not that proud to be one.
I know myself very much that I'm someone that is motivated by one stupid word, 'pride'. I know its stupid and its not biblical but I guess, sometimes it's just me. No pride= no motivation. That's why I'm thinking, if i get into aslc, I seriously don't mind going Guards. Argh! sometimes i really hate myself for being that way coz it's just so shallow!
This army really exposes so much weakness and iniquities that man have. argh! really feel that im such a hypocryte! oh Lord, I need Your grace. I already know that I'm not judged or accepted by what rank i wear or whatever i think is proud to show others that i'm good , yet i'm not living what was preached. I guess that's why i need His grace. please give me a revelation, Lord!
hmm.. as promised.. i'll do a post just before i go back camp. yeap. this week have been great! Somehow, when you are in the army.. time just moves really slowly.. even for block leave. Even though it's just one week plus, but it seems that i've enjoyed two weeks of leave. Totally recharged for the next phase of training. Well, for those who don't know.. i've been posted to SISPEC and to be frank, i wasn't really happy about it still. Everyone that I asked, seems to be going OCS yet not myself man. But well, I guess I have to face with the reality and just go ahead with the training. Though all that disappointment, I think I'm starting to accept it and telling myself that there are also advantages just being a Section Commander.
http://sg.settlerscafe.com/
Alright. I think all of you should really check this place out man. I just went there yesturdae and i really enjoyed myself. It's a cafe that allow you to play boardgame at the same time. After playing the games, I was really inspired by cafe like this and I really feel like doing something like that. Not using boardgame also, but if i'm gonna set up a cafe.. I really want it to be very unique and everyone that came, just enjoys the place and the company.
And if you look under the website, there is this portion where it talk about their staff being nominated for the Spirit of Enterprise. When I click the website, it further excite me about doing business and I start reading those interviews on all the nominees. Really interesting on how they started their business and stuff.
Lord, Your favour to be upon me.
It's two months since I last blogged and I still wonder who reads my blog. Anyway, army have been great or rather, at least BMT have been great. I've met some great people and everyone in my company seems to be great but well, I'm out of tekong now. I'm into the 1st official day of my block leave(i have 4 unofficial days already) and yeap, I just hope that my posting will be good for this friday though I think that getting into where I want can be rather difficult. But, I'm not gonna care anymore. If I'm placed in another place, God better make sure that I'm in a better place. Somewhere I hope I can learn things from and i hope it will change my mind on how saf works.
alrite. i'll blog again soon. dont worry. before i book in next week. ;)
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